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On My Tippy Toes


New Years Eve Dinner. Did I mention he cooks? …swoon.

This is a new one for me. I am used to having full control, making all the decisions, and knowing just what is going to happen. I suppose juggling a relationship and a trip is the full testament to being an adult. Having to worry about someone else’s needs and wants. The ultimate word in a relationship is compromise. In the past I never had to worry about what someone else thought of where I was going, it was all about me. This trip is different. Its about an “US”. Its also about my boyfriends family. So not only is it a boyfriend-girlfriend international trip, but part of it is about a family vacation. I will be experiencing new cultures. Daniel and I will be creating memories. And Daniel’s family and I will be growing together. Big things are happening. Who know so much pressure could be put on on a round trip ticket? …everyone, I guess that was everyone…

I feel a relationship is supposed to have bumps in the road. It’s supposed to have troubles, and bad days. Keep in mind, this is in moderation. But I only believe this because I believe the best relationships are about growth. One doesn’t grow and learn when everyday is sunshine and rainbows. One grows when they learn to change a spare tire because they are on the side of the road with a flat. Everyone grows, but can you grow and learn together? Can you pull each other up? Can you be the person they need when they are on that side of the road changing the tire? Marilyn Monroe was getting to this same point,

“I’m selfish, impatient, and a little insecure. I make mistakes, I’m out of control, and at times hard to handle. But if you can’t handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don’t deserve me at my best.”

Girls today love to use this as an excuse for why a man can’t handle their psychotic behavior. I believe they are only taking her words at face value. Marilyn wouldn’t have the World following her if she was just selfish, insecure and made mistakes. When life got bumpy, and she became selfish, insure and made mistakes, she needed someone to lean on to pick up the slack. She was looking for someone who wasn’t just okay with her not being the picturesque Marilyn but someone to be there through the thick and the thin. In the end, isn’t that what we are all looking for?

I need someone who is okay that everything doesn’t go as planned. A life full of adventure. No one ever said an adventurist life is perfect but it sure does keep you on your tippy toes. That being said, Daniel and I are kicking the tires and we are ready to have those troubles to grow together. Our choice for taking the relationship for a spin? The Philippines! Traveling with my love, is my way of putting all of this on overdrive. Nothing says testing out selfish, impatient, insecurities, out of control, hard to handle and making mistakes quite like international travel.


We are officially on the real countdown of less than a month to go before we have lift off. We are narrowing down the cities we want to visit, and narrowing down the top must sees of the Philippines. Until then, I will be here in San Diego, on my tippy toes, counting down to the second until our trip. In case you were wondering its 27 days, 13 hours, and 19 minutes.

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Perriann Hodges

I am not an author. To be quite honest, I always hated English class. I write so I may share my experiences and remember the man I met on a bus who treated me to dinner with his family, paying and booking a hotel only to find out its out of business, fake crying in the Athens airport to get a ticket home, or remember the strangers who looked out for me on a bus. Some live, experience, and are fulfilled by what’s in their backyards. I find there is something truly exhilarating about cramming as many possessions into a bag as possible, only to complain you brought too many. This is my life out of a suitcase, hope you enjoy.

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